Last year in 2017 during the same time, I joined gym and ended up getting trained on strength and weight exercises. It was a feeling beyond compare but demanded me to focus also on a balanced diet which was a struggle staying alone in Bengaluru away from my family and world’s best nutritionist i.e. my mother. I wonder how she manages everything so beautifully. Till today, she is my go to person for all my problems. She is just so calm and balanced and not to forget her persuasive side to get things done. Perhaps, I have got my managerial skills from her.
The professional front started demanding more than the usual 8 hours and I ended coordinating work status and calls between respective teams at dinner hours. Eventually, I left working out at gym and then started turmoil of issues affecting me very easily. This blog is my experience to share how things got worse each day. The one thing that happened immediately was I lost my enthusiasm of waking up early which made me sleep longer eventually leading to missing breakfast.
The best meal of my day went in vain making me more anxious by the lunch time. Yet, I made a point to keep the balance at work intact which led me to have coffees in office. Another bad habit, if gets out of control. It was after lunch that I could peacefully resume my work and client calls. The day at work passed exactly this way each day. What went wrong was my personal space. I was so caught up with this never ending struggle that I craved for peace once I was back in my room. I still remember other girls around me discussing their day and gaining a retrospect. I stayed numb or rather preferred smiling.
Till today, I feel having a balanced diet makes such a huge difference. I should give the credit to my mentor at work, Varna for pointing out this to me. I clearly remember him saying, “Do not schedule calls during your lunch timings” and that in his 20 years of career, he never let work cross paths with his lunch timings. I feel blessed to have such a mentor guiding me at all times at work and I immediately implemented his suggestion. But the loss was done by this moment and I had to visit Doctor to gain a confirmation if all is well with me.
The first time I met the Doctor, I remember it was a shaking feeling waiting with other people to get my name called out. My Doctor was not just experienced but also very understanding on why I was scared about my health and thought it was best to consult a Doctor. The only problem that she pointed out apart from irregular diets was STRESS. This word could never affect me while I was working 24 * 7 in my own startup. Then how the hell it mattered now?
I started medication and told myself firmly that nothing matters more than my well being. The money earnt, friends and family all just stopped making a point to me then. I sat down in the park in front of PG and focussed on breathing. In that very moment, I knew whom to confront and what to try to get rid of this feeling. It was this simple exercise that I was missing and lost track of all the good things happening around me.
In uncertain times, do remember to Breathe IN and Breathe OUT !!
